Saturday, March 18, 2017

feeling suppressed 
Lost memories  
blank pages
My normal daydreams 
Déjà vu,  perhaps 
I guess I always knew 
The Red flags 
Once so faint  
no longer silent 
it has been so long 
 I don't think I understand 
You never filled me in 
Outlines; no colors 
Just inside the maze 
The plain writing 
The missing pieces 
why did you wait 
I wanted to hear your voice 
I wanted to sing along 
why now
I cant find reason
nothing has changed
why do I feel so different?



Thursday, August 4, 2016

You painted a pretty picture
wrote your words in erasable ink
told a delightful story
making promises you couldn't keep
such beautiful lies
the perfect tears you cried
they weren't even your own
borrowed from someone else's sorrow
you're not unique
spill your velvet words
they left splinters in my soul
who did I become
chasing your dream
tell me you're sorry
like I've never heard the words
wind me up and let me loose
I could never love you



Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Darling Soul



Laugh and dance shake it up
twist a new fate
smile and nod wish it away
splash through the pain
here we are
where we've been for so long
the story seems new
I look at you
I only see what I want to see
nothing looks the same
the stories grow
the lies still told
I am left here to wonder
where have you been
who are you now
the excuses grow cumbersome
you live this dream
paint your skin and shine
the user
more lonely that the used

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Pit of my stomach


Devastation

Fills the silence

It whispers in two voices

The words repeat

Over and over

Rewind and replay

There is no quiet now

My dream shattered so casually

To indulge your sense of self satisfaction

Listen to my voice shake

The tears that scream your name

I can’t feel your skin right now

I’m drowning in my silent rage

Self-loathing and insecurities

Seem to be my only friends

I beg for a soundless moment

To help me understand

Your guilt believes it should be set free

For me there is no release

For all that I have now seen

Leaves me wondering

What I did not see

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

A Heart to Heart


Our time is ticking
Seconds counting down
A faceless clock
Reflections of you
Sweet words slightly muffled
My shadow crowded by this haze
Opening up to a person
I never knew I could be
I smell you on my skin
Balance walks its fine line
Blending into each moment
Your heart beats to mine
Soul to soul
Two lovers kiss
Dynamic contrast
Dark to light
An unlocked door
Unexplainable fervor
Spiritually connected
explore to the depths of my being
I know my life is there
right behind your eyes




Sunday, October 5, 2014

you

I cannot explain the change
it is not in my control
I read your words
letters to my soul
In my mind I hear your voice
I know what is real
laugh with me today
lets touch the sun
I wanna taste your words
I want to see your light
to feel you all over me
the pleasure
the delight
tuck me in your heart
show me where I should be
tell me when to start

The world

The falsehood rises to the surface
I quietly count to ten
all the voices
the unnecessary chatter
I find it hard to comprehend
I dare not run
my eyes never shut
searching for a change
shed the layers of yesterday
my new flesh ready to feel the heat
lies, false assumption, games and deciet